gosh

I feel absolutely miserable. My mood has been sinking from yesterday afternoon and was low all day. It is now night time and I have felt terrible and mostly avoided talking to anyone at all.

There are people I can reach out to, but I don’t see how I could speak at length about my feelings. I don’t want to be bothered writing about it on my blog that no one reads.

I wish someone wanted to listen to me. Sometimes, people say they do, but my low self-esteem seems to repulse them. I could elaborate on that, but I don’t feel like it. I don’t feel like trying at all.

I’m showing up here today to tell myself I did it. No expectations. Minimal effort. Still here. Today.

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