in vino veritas

I just want to try! You know what I mean? I just want to earnestly try a whole bunch of things. I miss that. Before all the bullying, I used to try all the time. It was one of things so many peers and adults mocked me for: my earnesty.

I’m so bored with everything having to look perfect before attempting anything at all. Boring! I’m so over it.

I want to write whatever on my blog. Who cares anyway? Why the hell not?

Why does everything have to look so polished and aesthetically pleasing all the time? Why does every facet of my life have to be so presentable? I’m rejected even when I people-please anyway.

I have tried so damn hard to be someone else, hoping that once I became another person that I would be liked for who I already am. Huh? It makes no sense, but so many people are doing the same thing. Obviously, I did not make this all up on my own.

I’m going to be an average amateur writer who probably never gets paid for her work. How do you like me now?

So, let’s do it, Wishbone! You and me. Let’s be open and free and earnest. I miss it. Do you?