brighter

Today is brighter than yesterday. I have limited hope and no inspiration to speak of, but I feel lighter nonetheless. I do not know why I’m still struggling so much. Maybe, I will never know why. Maybe, I’ll just follow this train as far as it can take me and walk the rest of the way.

Maybe, none of this matters because the individual brushstrokes don’t make the painting on their own. Maybe, I just keep painting and see what happens. Maybe, the base coat is a bit dark and uneven. Maybe, that will help me with the next layer or the layers after that.

I’m struggling. No shame in that.

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